We have our travel approval and our consulate appointment. Why is there not a great big exclamation mark and smiley face behind that sentence? Remember, God is working on my deep water faith. We have a situation that I've never read in anyone else's blog, but I'm sure we could not possibly be the first.
When we received our final update and picture, alarms went off in my heart. Isaac did not look like the happy guy we had seen in videos 10 months earlier. He looked miserable and terrified. I asked our agency if we could possibly get more information about this change. Well, they came back with life-changing information.
Isaac's history before he came to the orphanage at age 6 finally came to light. He was able to share with his favorite nanny a story that explains the fear that is threatening to overtake his future. He has to agree to this adoption, but he is afraid to trust in the fact that we will love him and protect him. It seems unbelievable to him that someone would want a child with thalassemia. Trusting is sooo hard.
Sometimes I have trouble believing that my Father loves me despite my imperfections. Sometimes I have trouble believing that my Father will protect me in this scary world. God has proven his love and protection over me many many times and I still doubt! I can't imagine trusting someone with such a big task when there is no proven track record. That's huge -- especially for a 10 year old who has not had the opportunity to know a loving father.
So, here's the deal. We are going to skype with Isaac Monday night in our home. Praise God for technology! Hopefully this will help ease his anxiety. The orphanage workers will then talk with him and make a decision about whether or not we will continue with the adoption. Please pray for Isaac to have peace. Please pray for our family to have acceptance.
God is so good and I have no doubt that this situation is being turned into something beautiful. Isaac is no longer carrying a dark secret that has burdened him for 4 years. The orphanage workers have important information that will help them to help Isaac better. As always, He is working a new thing in me that will give me a glimpse of a God that is bigger and better than I could ever imagine! God is awesome and I can't wait to see the ending of this story!
When praying for Isaac, God brought this scripture to mind as a promise for Isaac and our family:
ReplyDeleteIsaiah 42:3&6a, "A bruised reed He will not break and a dimly burning wick He will not extinguish. He will faithfully bring forth justice. 'I am the LORD, I have called you in righteousness, I will also hold you by the hand and watch over you.'"
I love that our God is a God who is compassionate and doesn't overlook, but loves and nurtures and holds those who are broken and hurt close to His heart.